A Request

Do you think that we can control our power and emotions? Do you think that the god in inside you? What do you think?

My mind is just wondering. Why can’t I control my emotions? Why can’t I hide my tears with a smile? But I have to do it anyhow, coz. They say me that I am their GOD. They say me I am their living Goddess. I am God so I can’t go outside and play like other children of my age do. I have to hide my childish nature and give blessings to everyone whoever come to visit me. OH! People take my photographs. Am I a celebrity? Certainly not; I have not done anything to be the celebrity. They just brought me from my playing Garden, changed my appearances, and changed my dresses. Oh! God it’s very disgusting. I can’t choose my own dress.
Every morning I have to wake up very early, I can’t sleep for late hour. Nobody understands me. They just worship me. I can’t laugh freely, also I can’t cry aloud. I can’t call my mamma. I can’t call my papa. They also worship me. How can I say them I am not your god. I am your daughter. I am your little child who wants freedom. A little child can’t bless u old people. I can’t be God. I have not any power to be God. I am a normal kid, who has many things to learn from you old people.
Please understand me. Please, don’t worship me. But love me and provide me all those a child need. I want the love and care not the worship. Please understand me; please help me to get out of this prison. I want freedom not the restriction.

सपना

औसीको रात

एउटा सपना

मेरो जीवनमा आयो ।

मेरो ओठमा

मिठो मुस्कान ल्यायो।।

रोइरहेको मेरो मनमा

त्यो सपनाले मलाई

खुशी बनायो ।

हो त्यही सपना

त्यही सपना

जस्ले औसिको रातमा

चन्द्रमाको प्रकाश देखायो

प्रचन्ड गर्मीमा

शितलता प्रदान गर्‍यो

त्यही सपना

जसलाई पुरा गर्न

मानिसहरु दिनरात तपस्या गर्छन्

तर मलाई अनायसै प्राप्त भयो

हर्स र उमङग को आँधी नै आयो ,

मेरो सपना,

जसले जीवनको आफ्ठ्यारोमा

मलाई हिंड्न सिकायो

त्यही सपना ,

जसको आगमनले

मन नै प्रफुल्लित भयो ।

त्यही औँसीको रातमा

आएको सपना,

आज,

अहिले कहाँ बिलायो

सपना त सपनै रहेछ

क्षणभरमै हरायो

त्यो सपना,

जसलाई आफ्नो जीवन ठाने

त्यो त भ्रम पो रहेछ ।

औसिको रातमा

देखेको सपना,

सुर्यको किरणसँगै शित हराएझैँ

मेरो सपना पनि हरायो,

मलाई जीवन जिउन

सिकाएर गयो

मैले धन्यवाद

दिन पनि पाइन

न त सपनालाई

चिन्न नै सके

म त रणभुल्लमा परें

सपना भ्रम थियो

या वास्तविकता

एकचोटी

मात्र एकचोटी

आईदिए हुन्थ्यो मेरो सपना,

ता की म चिन्न सक्थे सपनालाई ,

छुट्याउन सक्थे म ,

सपना , सपना थियो या

बिपना

भ्रम थियो या

वास्तविकता । ।।।।।

I Need...........................

Like a dessert needs the water,

Like a flower needs the rain,

My soul is thristy for your love,

My heart screams out your name.

Like a ship needs a sailor,

Like the stars need the sky,

You brighten up my world,

Like the moon lights up the night.

Like a movie star loves fame,

Like a poor man needs money,

I need and long for your love,

For your as sweet as honey.

When the twlight is fading,

And the sky is dark with blue,

Just remember this one thing,

Darlin, I really do need you.

I'm so proud I met you,

Would love to have you by my side,

And I just want you to know,

You really light up my life.

नेपाली भएर नेपालप्रती माया भएन भने हामी के नेपाली हुन सक्छौ र ?
सुनौलो बिहानीको आशमा रातको अँधेरोमा जुन र तारा हेरेर चित्त बुझाउने हामी नेपाली , जुन र तारालाई नजिकको ठानी आनन्द लिन्छौं र सुनौंलो बिहानिको आशमा बाच्छौं , मानौं जुन र ताराले घामको किरण ल्याउने छन । तर त्यो जुन जो अरुको प्रकाशलाई आफ्नो बनाएर हामीलाई झुक्याउछ अनी तारा चम्किमात्र रहन्छ कहिलै कसैको लागि बाच्दैन , ति निर्दयी जून र तारा हेरेर किन समय खेर फाल्नु ।
देवकोटाले भनेझैं चन्द्रमा छुने सपना पुरानो भयो अब । अब त नयाँ बिहानीमा क्रान्तिको सुनौलो रङ ल्यएर सबैको ओठमा मुस्कान छर्ने दिन आको आएको छ । चन्द्रमा लाई छुने सपना देखेर के गर्नु र आफ्नो परिवार , समाज र राष्ट्र रोहिरहेको छ भने । हामीले अब आफु मात्र चम्कने तारा होइन जगतलाई उज्यालो पार्ने सुर्य बन्ने दिन आएको छ । जगतलाई न्यनोपना दिने सुर्य झैं बन्नुपर्छ जस्ले राम्रो अभिभावकत्व निभाएको छ । कहिले कठोर बनेर हामीलाई झस्काइरहेको छ त न्यानोपना दिईरहेको हुन्छ। तसर्थ लक्ष्य चन्द्रमा छुने हैन , तारा बन्ने होइन सुर्य बनेर जगतलाई चम्काउने बन्नुपर्छ । जनताको लागि हुनुपर्छ।
कहिलेकाही बादलले छेकिदिन्छ सुर्यलाई निर्दयी बनेर तर सुर्य कती पनि बिचल्लित हुँदैन। सारा सृस्‍टिको आधार बनेर सुर्य झुल्किरहन्छ । आफ्नो कर्तब्यबाट कती पनि बिमुख भएको छैन । समयमा आफ्नो काम गर्छ । उसलाई सबैतिर भ्याउनु छ । एकातर्फ अध्यारो बनएर अर्कोतर्फ जान्छ भने धेरै अध्यारोमा नराखी पुन: उज्ज्यालो पार्न आउने गर्छ ।
हो! अब सुर्यबाट सिक्ने दिन आएको छ । अरुको सक्तिलाई आफ्नो बनाई आफ्नो कम्जोरी लुकाउने चन्द्रमा होइन , सुर्य झैं संसारलाई दिशा प्रदान गर्ने सुर्य बन्ने सपना बोक्ने दिन आएको छ। अनी त्यस सपनालाई साकार पार्न सपनाको संसारबाट वास्तविकतामा आएर पूरा गर्ने दिन आएको छ । नेपाल आमाको सपना पूरा गर्ने दिन आएको छ ।
तसर्थ ,

सपनाको महल त्यागी
वास्तविकतामा ओर्लौ
तारा बनेर चम्कने होइन
सुर्य बनेर जगतलाई चम्काउं

तारा भनेर चिच्याउने त
सिनित छन ।
तर , सुर्यको आवश्यकता
सबैलाई छ।

अरुको साहयता लिई
कम्जोरिलाई ढाकछोप गर्ने
चन्द्रमा होइन ।
जगतको आधारशिला
सुर्य बन्नु छ ।

दिउंसो जहाँ भएपनी
रात त घर आउनैपर्छ ।
भात्किएको घरमा
रात कसरी बिताउने

त्यसैले ,

दिउंसो घर बनाउनै पर्छ
पछी पछुताउनु भन्दा ,
अहिल्यै ,घर बनाउनु पर्छ
आजै देश बनाउनु पर्छ
अहिल्यै देश बनाउनु पर्छ ।।।

please......................................................

I used to have a simple life before you came into my life . But after you came onto my life , you changed my daily routines ,forgetting others and thinking about u was new things added in my routines . I wanted you to be with me all the time although i knew it was not possible . I didn't know what had happen to me? But my happiness crossed the boundary when i came to know that you loved me too .. i understood the meaning of love. and you know once you have told: LOVE is:
L=Lake of happiness
O=Ocean of success
V=valley of inspiration...
E=Entertainment in life
..
Yes, you are only the person who made me enjoy the life . it is because of you i came to know the interrelationship between the life and love . I request you not to take my feelings negatively and never try to trace my heart . because your heart is inside my heart .


But in last few weeks what had happened to you , i dont know. The relation that began two years ago with a charming smile seems to be vanished in the air in few second. you broke our relationship for no possible reason/. The last time when you met me and told that you dont love me any more and forget all the things of past , and not to come in your way as well and went . i was in full of tears alone and could not do anything. there was eerywhere dark around me. How easily you said to forget .. but how can i forget .. you not only took my heart you took my whole life.. and hope.... i lost very much important thing in my life.

you at first made me know the meaning of love. but you know today i came to know that LOVE is not what you told,. LOVE is..


L=Lake of sorrow
O=ocean of tears /
V=valley of death
E=End of life..


Why?? Why did you leave me? how can you do this to me? What was my mistake. ? please give me time to realize it . I request you if you don't love me then you have no right to hate me also . Cant you be as a friend . please don't go far . be my good friend. Make our friendship everlasting / We can be as a model to this society that girls and boys are not always lover but also the best friend . please don't break my once broken heart further ........ will u be my friend please..................................

yours
Nanu..

my feelings

Nowadays I don’t know what has happened to me. Every time I want to do something but it all goes wrong and wrong. I am not able to concentrate on my work and studies. What has happened to me? Why all the people around me seem to be my opponents. There is no one around me to understand me. I am alone and all alone. I know that my feelings are very much different from others. my thinking an d my attitude towards life is very much different from others. every body says that I am mysterious but there is no one who tries to understand me.

In the crowd of the people I am all alone. I am alone. In the circle of my friends. Why???????? A great question arises on my mind. Coz. I am not able to know why this happens. So thus now I will do a different kind of work to cover my loneliness. Yes from today I will be different. And I know that I have to be different to cope with my problem. Yes this is the great idea that I can do to avoid loneliness that is to do anything creative. And I am trying to do that by trying to write something in my diary.

I don’t know what is going on…

Every day I meet different types of people. But I am not able to find out the perfect friend

Who can help me to remove my loneliness. I am not able to do my works properly. now there is only one friend and that is my diary. Coz this is only the one with whom I can share my feelings. Although it will not say anything in return. but also I feel lighter so I write everything in the diary.

But diary is not the perfect solution. coz it doesn’t say anything in returns.. So I am in search of a very special friend for me.. But I know that I cannot find any type of friends coz. No any people in this world are of my type. I think that there is no one who is born in this world to accompany me. Thus a big problem arises in me. Whom to tell and what to tell it’s the big problem. So it’s the great problem for me. But everythings happens to be good, might this lonliness give me the proper direction to me.. so I am hoping to be everything good,….. Diary has brought me this positive feelings .. thanks my diary ……….now I am sure that one time my day will come. And I can overcome from all of my problems….:)

मेरो कबिता मा पहिलो भेट !!!!!!

छोरीको चाहना ।।।।।।।।।।।। २०६०-८-२० ( in class six)

ए मेरा बाबा , ए मेरी आमा
स्कुल पठाइदेउ ।
गहना हैन किताब र कलम
हामीलाई किनिदेउ।।
स्कुलमा हामी गुरुले भन्या
राम्ररी बुझ्ने छौं
पदेर हामी देशको लागि
केही गरी छाड्नेछौं
दाईजोको चिन्ता नलेउ तिमी
पढाईको चिन्ता लेउ
चहिन्न दाईजो चहिने शिक्षा
हामीलाई धेरै देउ । ।
घांस दाउरा हैन किताबको भारी
हामीलाई बोकाईदेउ ।
दयाका पात्र होइनौ हामी
एकचोटी अवसर देउ ।
यस देशमा पनि फ्लोरेन्श जस्ता
छोरी जन्मिए ।
अवशर पाएनन तिनीहरुले
घासदाउरामै अल्झिए ।।
सतबुद्धी मिलोस सबैमा आज
यो मेरो कामना ।
प्रगती गरुन छोरीहरुले
यो मेरो चाहना ।।